Holidays were great , had been enjoying it. But it's quite sad though cause me and you didn't even go out. Didn't even meet and didn't even talk for quite so long. Yeah , things change and this is killing me. I miss you more and i simply just can't stop thinking of you. It would be our 8 months together on the 10th , do you remember it ? But i guess you're not. But i should be alright sooner or later , my friends were there for me to cheer me up , and making me smile. But i just wish it would be you , being there for me. And i just wish , we could talk like last time like how we used to be. I miss you , i miss us being together. Yeah , i've been saying I miss you all these while , and i'm wondering , do you miss me like i do ? I'm like a crazy girl over here , trying to face all this shits. Trying to accept the fact that you're not mine anymore and trying to move on with life. Its nearly one month we never meet , cause of the stupid school holidays. And i can't believe it , i can bear for not seeing you this long. My birthday coming soon , and all i just wish for my birthday is just you to spend time with me on that day. That would make me happy. Really , it would. Muhd Fariz , i really miss you and i just hope that you would know how i felt all this while.
I just wish you could read this.
Its been 1 month plus since i've updated. I'm lazy ya'know. Busy with schools, busy with friends and everything. Came back from Germany like 1 week ago? And now i simply can't wait for Bali trip. Exam is done and okaylah quite satisfied with most of my subjects. But not Art uhh, nonono. Oh guess what i got a C5 for Arttttt, thanks cher for giving me and some others that mark :)
I don't know what i should do now, its like i've been telling myself to stop thinking about you and to stop talking about you, but you know its so difficult for me to do all that? And do you know how hurtful it is after knowing the truth? Just so you know, i still love you now after everything that had happen. It hurts to pretend and act like everything is alright, fake a smile and laughter to everyone. And of course saying 'Oh, I'm okay' to everyone that asked me whats wrong with me. But i just have to do all that. I'm losing hope, losing strength and everytime people say your name i just wish that you and me are still together. But i know it will never happen, right? Its only left memories between us now. What can i do? I just have to accept everything that had happen. I just have to accept the fact. Well, this is reality. People fall in love, get hurt, and end it. Isn't it? And i know i can't find another you. Cause there's only one Fariz in this world. Takecare.
